Sometimes
No matter what clothes I put on, no matter how I act, how matter how cute I can be, no matter what I say, no matter how I change
You just can't win somebody else.
So what matters, what really matters, is to find that inner peas and be comfortable in your own skin, enjoy yourself for who you are, surround yourself with those who enjoy you too.
We often wanna look for happiness. But maybe, just maybe, as we consider our family, friends, those around us and consider what we are doing, happiness may just find us by itself.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Oh.
It's coming soon already. So soon.
I can't help it, dates kinda haunt me. I remember what I was doing one year ago, one and half years ago, at that time and that place. But well, I suppose as I grow older, I'll have more of other significant dates to take note of and slowly I'll forget/hold less in significance.
This Saturday I'm going to the Royal Melbourne Show! Apparently it's like lots of stuff, kinda like a carnival of sorts, with rides and food and things to see! Woooo! Singapore should have this man. Think what I appreciate most here is the interesting weather, green landscape, pretty blooming trees, weekend/artsy markets and events like these! Not to mention people who are extremely friendly and willing to help.
SM got me hooked on a show (watched on computer) like finally! Sungkyunkwan Scandel! Hahhaha. It's pretty interesting.
Time to keep in peace. Inner peas.
It's coming soon already. So soon.
I can't help it, dates kinda haunt me. I remember what I was doing one year ago, one and half years ago, at that time and that place. But well, I suppose as I grow older, I'll have more of other significant dates to take note of and slowly I'll forget/hold less in significance.
This Saturday I'm going to the Royal Melbourne Show! Apparently it's like lots of stuff, kinda like a carnival of sorts, with rides and food and things to see! Woooo! Singapore should have this man. Think what I appreciate most here is the interesting weather, green landscape, pretty blooming trees, weekend/artsy markets and events like these! Not to mention people who are extremely friendly and willing to help.
SM got me hooked on a show (watched on computer) like finally! Sungkyunkwan Scandel! Hahhaha. It's pretty interesting.
Time to keep in peace. Inner peas.
Friday, September 3, 2010
illustration
I noticed at my old blog I stopped at my 450th post. Haa. Here's a look at my past week's happenings! Muz be too lazy to type already. Got lots of work and I sooooo feeeel like sleeping (at inappropriate times). Yum chums.
i wuv how it looks (:
Pretty at Paperrific!
Very nice - at university pillar
My nasi-something lunch that can do me two meals :D
Sunday - Camberwell Market!
Cheap stuff!
Art installation
Hahah fun mirror at Pancake Palour
Pretty fabric buttons!
i wuv how it looks (:
Pretty at Paperrific!
Very nice - at university pillar
ooOooohh why didn't i buy 'em
My nasi-something lunch that can do me two meals :DSt Paul's Cathederal
Sunday - Camberwell Market!
Cheap stuff!
Art installation
Hahah fun mirror at Pancake Palour
Pretty fabric buttons!
Inspired from Paperrific
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
It's real
I tell you, it's real. Surreal.
Time here passes wayy too fast. It's already week 5 of school and just 13 weeks in total for this sem!
No I don't feel good. It's supposed to be a happy time. But what's a happy time when you've got the environment but not the people you want with you? This is craaaazzzzy. It's a good experience but I don't need green grass blue skies if I don't have who I want.
Well. I know I gotta treasure my time, but I'm human and I'll make allowances for such moments. This weekend I'm going to the craft fair muhahaha! Thank god for being able to keep in touch with the other side of the world through Internet. Wonders of it! If not I'll probably be eagerly waiting for a letter that arrives once every 3 months by zee Silk Road. Or the whatever sea.
Being over there it might seem like it's mundane, you're doing the same old things over again, but lemme tell you; I'm not you. I don't know what you have for breakfast, what interesting things you see on your way out, whether you met a new friend etc. When I say I went out skiing or have been to a brand new shopping area that's humongous I just wanna share. I just wanna tell you what is it like over here and the new experiences I'm getting. Happiness ain't happiness without sharing. Maybe it's the distance, but I kinda feel like I've lost something here. That's also probably why someone can just stop sharing like that. Maybe it was in the past when mentioned about trying harder, but you can't exactly try harder when you're more or less talking to a brick wall. It'll really be good to know the little details. The little bits that make up the big picture, that make up you.
Time here passes wayy too fast. It's already week 5 of school and just 13 weeks in total for this sem!
No I don't feel good. It's supposed to be a happy time. But what's a happy time when you've got the environment but not the people you want with you? This is craaaazzzzy. It's a good experience but I don't need green grass blue skies if I don't have who I want.
Well. I know I gotta treasure my time, but I'm human and I'll make allowances for such moments. This weekend I'm going to the craft fair muhahaha! Thank god for being able to keep in touch with the other side of the world through Internet. Wonders of it! If not I'll probably be eagerly waiting for a letter that arrives once every 3 months by zee Silk Road. Or the whatever sea.
Being over there it might seem like it's mundane, you're doing the same old things over again, but lemme tell you; I'm not you. I don't know what you have for breakfast, what interesting things you see on your way out, whether you met a new friend etc. When I say I went out skiing or have been to a brand new shopping area that's humongous I just wanna share. I just wanna tell you what is it like over here and the new experiences I'm getting. Happiness ain't happiness without sharing. Maybe it's the distance, but I kinda feel like I've lost something here. That's also probably why someone can just stop sharing like that. Maybe it was in the past when mentioned about trying harder, but you can't exactly try harder when you're more or less talking to a brick wall. It'll really be good to know the little details. The little bits that make up the big picture, that make up you.
Friday, August 20, 2010
right. write.
When I do readings regarding my future job and what I've been studying for the past 3 years, it sometimes seems like a whole lot to do. Then you get those parts where you read stories and real-life experiences and they somehow, make you believe you can be a little better. After all my clinical experiences in sg and supervisors, colleagues that I've met, it makes me go 'I wanna be that kind of supervisor. I wanna do well in what I'm doing, take pride in it and make it real'.
Studying Occupational Therapy, about it being a mix of Science & Arts, to me, brings about the interest readings of OT all around the world. As with anything and anyone else, even the profession itself is subjected to cultural, societal, economic etc influences. OT here isn't the same as OT there (with me being neither nor there, I don't know where here is). I left half a heart in sg, the other half is exploring, living for myself, interacting with a new environment and having fun!
When I become a therapist, I really really wanna make sure I'm myself; I may change over time according to what I'll experience and my beliefs, but I wanna be as comfortable as I can, knowing that humans have limitations, if we don't know it, it's all right, there's where we get a chance to know more and learn. As someone with years of working experience, that's just the difference between him/her and a new graduate/new person coming to study OT. We're all good in some stuff.
Seeing my friends finally start work (okay so not literally seeeeeing) also makes me hope that however fast-paced or stressful the work environment will be, I'll be able to put my own positive light to it, take things in my stride and be proud of my work. I wanna make that little difference to a client's life. I wanna be able to geninuely feel happiness when someone shows improvement and not go about doing things monotonously saying "Bagus encik!". We need to give encouragement as and when appropriate.
Doing the humongous Model essay in Yr 3 also put us to thinking about our own personal values in a Venn diagram with our encounters and OT. Man, I don't know about others, but that certainly did make me write. Even if we did not realize what we were writing about, reading it now eons after the writing started can be a stepping stone to realizing what we want out of this profession.
I never saw myself choosing this path before. It was just a wandering into the OT booth and Psychology and Sociology having that something 'missing' in the local unis. At that time, I couldn't put my finger to what was that missing thing, I just felt its presence, it was just there. There was just this sixth sense telling me that though I wasn't sure what exactly OT was at that time, I didn't 100% hope/pray/wish I'll get into local unis into those courses.
It's pretty amazing, once you get onto it. It opens up a new world, where people may be more vulnerable than before, where you see emotions you don't usually see. Where you learn and experience those emotions for yourself. Nothing remains unaffected and we're all interdependent. As long as I move, the river your side will flow. I don't know how in the future I and everybody else will turn out to be, that leaves more to wonder.
I like interacting with some people/most people/no people. I think some people are deeper to figure out, but maybe they're not so deep after all. I like life, it gives me opportunities and pleasure, I get to do fun things and enjoy my moments with my favourite people. I know who I love and maybe there are more to come. So why this? Maybe it's just a teeny weeny feeling again, of something incomplete, of something not quite there. Or maybe I just had stuff to talk about, to get off my chest.
Studying Occupational Therapy, about it being a mix of Science & Arts, to me, brings about the interest readings of OT all around the world. As with anything and anyone else, even the profession itself is subjected to cultural, societal, economic etc influences. OT here isn't the same as OT there (with me being neither nor there, I don't know where here is). I left half a heart in sg, the other half is exploring, living for myself, interacting with a new environment and having fun!
When I become a therapist, I really really wanna make sure I'm myself; I may change over time according to what I'll experience and my beliefs, but I wanna be as comfortable as I can, knowing that humans have limitations, if we don't know it, it's all right, there's where we get a chance to know more and learn. As someone with years of working experience, that's just the difference between him/her and a new graduate/new person coming to study OT. We're all good in some stuff.
Seeing my friends finally start work (okay so not literally seeeeeing) also makes me hope that however fast-paced or stressful the work environment will be, I'll be able to put my own positive light to it, take things in my stride and be proud of my work. I wanna make that little difference to a client's life. I wanna be able to geninuely feel happiness when someone shows improvement and not go about doing things monotonously saying "Bagus encik!". We need to give encouragement as and when appropriate.
Doing the humongous Model essay in Yr 3 also put us to thinking about our own personal values in a Venn diagram with our encounters and OT. Man, I don't know about others, but that certainly did make me write. Even if we did not realize what we were writing about, reading it now eons after the writing started can be a stepping stone to realizing what we want out of this profession.
I never saw myself choosing this path before. It was just a wandering into the OT booth and Psychology and Sociology having that something 'missing' in the local unis. At that time, I couldn't put my finger to what was that missing thing, I just felt its presence, it was just there. There was just this sixth sense telling me that though I wasn't sure what exactly OT was at that time, I didn't 100% hope/pray/wish I'll get into local unis into those courses.
It's pretty amazing, once you get onto it. It opens up a new world, where people may be more vulnerable than before, where you see emotions you don't usually see. Where you learn and experience those emotions for yourself. Nothing remains unaffected and we're all interdependent. As long as I move, the river your side will flow. I don't know how in the future I and everybody else will turn out to be, that leaves more to wonder.
I like interacting with some people/most people/no people. I think some people are deeper to figure out, but maybe they're not so deep after all. I like life, it gives me opportunities and pleasure, I get to do fun things and enjoy my moments with my favourite people. I know who I love and maybe there are more to come. So why this? Maybe it's just a teeny weeny feeling again, of something incomplete, of something not quite there. Or maybe I just had stuff to talk about, to get off my chest.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Feel
Maybe it doesn't really matter
if you don't ask, don't enquire
Even if you don't post photos of us together,
or give me something of yours to remember
Maybe even if you couldn't/didn't/wouldn't
or didn't think about it
Maybe it's not your style
to share how you feel
I don't know how it matters
But I would really really love it,
if you'll tell me so
if you don't ask, don't enquire
Even if you don't post photos of us together,
or give me something of yours to remember
Maybe even if you couldn't/didn't/wouldn't
or didn't think about it
Maybe it's not your style
to share how you feel
I don't know how it matters
But I would really really love it,
if you'll tell me so
Monday, August 16, 2010
Excitingness!
Meet Owlet.
Owlet visits the knitting.
Owlet meets Totoro.Totoro: I must be taller than you! *climbs onto packet drink*
Owlet takes a look.
Owlet goes for a drive in Totoro.
Before
After!
And this Sunday I'm gonna explore a new shopping centre! New because I haven't been there hahahahah so yeps. Valleygirl! Wakaka. Waiting for winter sales and jacket sales. Haiii.
This week I've got some stuff to hand up and next week there's a poster presentation too! Gotta make it boomz! I've got a funny lecturer who comments on something on me almost everytime he sees me, like previously it was my nails and today it was my hat. That's not the point, but it made me realize it's either I'm not paying attention or I can't get the Aussie slang.. yet. He spoke to me and after 2 seconds I was wondering why my classmate and him were staring at me. Apparently they were like waiting for a response but ohwells. Hahhaa..
I bought my owlet finally! Like after what, three weeks? 2nd time I went Sunday Market, saw it but didn't buy, 3rd it rained, 4th the stall wasn't there. Mans. Ooohhh and I'm like having to plan when I can drink bubble tea! Cuz I haven't seen any good bubble tea stores nearby (why don't they have one in school?) and travelling to town takes at least an hour. So I'm gonna chow some bubble tea next week!
I did pilates tonight and sometimes I feel its good for stretching muscles but sometimes I feel it's just nonsense of something. I havent made up my mind as to what to think about it. Rwar. Mans and the weather or something always leaves me hungry. I always want to eat/munch on something. I've got chocolate cake, biscuits, tea, more chocolate, chips, fruits and that's a whole lot! Luckily my kitchen is quiet so I kinda have the place to myself, abeit with a few people around. Oompha. A bowl of laksa/tomyam would still do good now.
Owlet takes a look.Owlet goes for a drive in Totoro.
Before
After!Muahah! I forsee my life becoming more and more filled with fun stuff and of course, schoolwork! This Sat I'm going to MOUNT BULLERRR to see the snowww! Fingers crossed, I want everybody to keep safe. Time to build a snowman yo!
And this Sunday I'm gonna explore a new shopping centre! New because I haven't been there hahahahah so yeps. Valleygirl! Wakaka. Waiting for winter sales and jacket sales. Haiii.
This week I've got some stuff to hand up and next week there's a poster presentation too! Gotta make it boomz! I've got a funny lecturer who comments on something on me almost everytime he sees me, like previously it was my nails and today it was my hat. That's not the point, but it made me realize it's either I'm not paying attention or I can't get the Aussie slang.. yet. He spoke to me and after 2 seconds I was wondering why my classmate and him were staring at me. Apparently they were like waiting for a response but ohwells. Hahhaa..
I bought my owlet finally! Like after what, three weeks? 2nd time I went Sunday Market, saw it but didn't buy, 3rd it rained, 4th the stall wasn't there. Mans. Ooohhh and I'm like having to plan when I can drink bubble tea! Cuz I haven't seen any good bubble tea stores nearby (why don't they have one in school?) and travelling to town takes at least an hour. So I'm gonna chow some bubble tea next week!
I made bobochacha and it's yummy! Man. I'm really glad I got my household training wayyy before I came. So now even chores seem easier and anw I only have one room and a spot in the kitchen to bother about. Luckily I've been used to doing laundry, getting food and stuff. Grocery shopping is becoming a major part of life! Never knew food was so fun! Hahhaha. I need to improve on my stuffed mushrooms tho, maybe add more spices or something for it to be more fragrant.
The weather nowadays is nuts. Weekend it was reaaaallll good, esp for going out and shopping and buying food. So you don't have to worry about cold wind in your face as you're bothering about something else. But today! It was freeezing mad! Heard it was 9 degrees. It'll b like that for the next couple days with rain I suppose. Brwar. Just when spring's supposed to come.
I did pilates tonight and sometimes I feel its good for stretching muscles but sometimes I feel it's just nonsense of something. I havent made up my mind as to what to think about it. Rwar. Mans and the weather or something always leaves me hungry. I always want to eat/munch on something. I've got chocolate cake, biscuits, tea, more chocolate, chips, fruits and that's a whole lot! Luckily my kitchen is quiet so I kinda have the place to myself, abeit with a few people around. Oompha. A bowl of laksa/tomyam would still do good now.
I've been thinking of travelling! Well thinking is always good. At least it gives a more long term goal in mind and I can slowly jio the people or see who's interested. Yiiipsss! Hehehhh. Aussie is a good place to start with yo, with friendly people, nice skies, bright stars at night and interesting places to go and see!
I need/want to eat (fun to list down for now): Laksa, chicken rice, curry fish head, CHARKWAYTEOW, tomyam soup, fish noodle soup, nasi lemak, teh-peng (oh man I miss teh-peng), bak ku teh, Prima Deli waffles with kaya, Ya Kun french toast, teh-oh peng, steamed fish, fried kangkong with sambal chilli, chilli crab and mantou, DIMSUM, fried carrot cake, cheecheongfun.. the list will go on. I'll think of more and add as I go. Haha. Man, you really gotta experience being away to miss it; I can hear friends telling me they're envious and they wanna be here!
I might just treat myself to a salmon steak if the time and money are right.
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