2011

In 2010 I probably have had more new experiences than I ever had.

Not everything goes by the norm. You never know how you might end up. Meeting my best people ever since I came back has to be the most awesome thing ever. Amazingly I managed to cram meeting some JC peeps, poly mates, BB CO girls and 4e1! Not forgetting my family and relatives. It's all I need. Being happy with what I have now.

Blessings and strength for the new year please. Thank you!

Just like that lor.

Bye.

Cuz you had the trust but you lost it, sorry and I can't believe what you wanna make me do again. I. Cannot. Believe. It so I cannot believe you anymore. Sickening.

Because my horoscope says so, because I feel so, because I think I have more self-control than that. I love myself, I love my life and that's how it's gonna be.

This is probably the best quality time I'll get with my Sis. OooOoh I think I wanna visit her again when I've graduated. And btw I got my results! Looking good hahah with As and mostly Bs. Chio sia, school in Aussie is almost effortless. Almost. Such is life.

Next time it'll be awesome if I can have sufficient time and money to travel (maybe at least once every two years?), live in a comfy chio house (with stone floors for kitchen and wooden flooring for rest), be surrounded by friends and family and be happy. Awesome. (: I just get so happy dreaming about it. Go, happiness!

Ommmm.

I am currently being bored to death, relying mainly on social interaction through the Internet. Thank goodness I didn't choose to stay over in uni during the hols - the emptiness is getting to me. Human beings are social beings after all. Thank goodness too for the friends I have online. Wahahahhaha. They keep me sane.

ONE MORE DAY!! One more day to new things to do, new food to eat, new people to meet, sights to see and fun with my sistaaaaa! Hang on there. At least tomorrow I'll be going out.

Sian. I'm almost turning 22. Fellow 22-ians, can you even believe that?? I can't believe that. I couldn't believe it when I turned 18, then 20(jump to a '2') den an adult 21. Come on, I'm practically a kid still. Goodness why do we hafta grow up?

Rwarawr to people assuming that there's nobody else in this floor and for taking my chicken kiev and absolutely useful stunning frying pan. Rwarwar! I almost wanted to put up a sign "Someone still lives here please stop taking stuff".

Heard that some e1 people are going for suppa tonight. Ohh man. I'll be back, soon! Before you know it! After you blink! Okay now blink. Haha.

So how should I go about with you? Tell you? Tell you what? Live on what I shouldn't be doing? Coming home is a different thing. I'm stuck.

But without trust, you and I are nothing.

Just a lil' bit from me

I mean

Ahh. What's new?

Are you what I need?

Hols have been gooooot (: One of the best times of my life when I get to live how I want to, enjoy and take in things anew. Travelling for these two weeks have been an intense workout, cuz I'm climbing mountains like once every two days. Steps, inclines, mountains, mud puddles, the sea, rocks, pebbles, you name it, I've got it.

Man I REALLY should have asked for that guy's contact. Araraghghghg. Gawwwd.

The trip has been a test of my thinking as well. As to how to deal with people, to show tolerance, come to a compromise etc. Many a time each of us may wanna do our own thang you know. Plus good food isn't always available, but we did go frugal! I haven't had good music in two weeks omg the best I can come up with is singing to myself or trying to harmonize with my SPY group. Hahhaa.

Each person had his own special song to go along.

This trip was also a test of disconnecting myself with the virtual world. Which also meant lesser communication with those overseas. I think I've become slightly different. Just by talking to friends online I get a very pleasing feeling :D pleasant feeling, pleasing, whatever. It feels like I'm looking at things differently now. An attempt to show more patience? A horizon broadened? Hm.

I learnt lots of new stuff on the trip, about different plants, berries to eat when one is stuck in the wilderness, different types of trees and the best type of weather to see them in, interesting facts about animals (wombats rule by far!), met different people etc.

By today 3 of my floormates have moved out. I miss Nik's toopid antics and good food and Charlie's 'Hey YY how's it going?' greetings. Ohwells. People come and go. At least our paths crossed once.

Frantic packing going now.. but I'm at a good progress. I just have TOO MUCH to bring back to Sg, who knew that I could own so much :D 1 more month! Nothing feels warmer and better than friends who tell me they're waiting to see me again and hang out and do stuff ((: Just about nothing. It tells me that friends are really significant and they stick around.

You know, if you're so busy, don't bother. Obviously I'm not good enough motivation if you can't do something simple yeah.

Y'know

You know, life is good. Gooottttt.

Finished that one exam, on holiday now. It's pretty rather amazing considering that this semester hasn't been that extreme work at all, either that or it's something unique about Singapore education. Tho I agree. It's so much more fast-paced there, we're trained to think fast, act fast, move fast.

Past few days have been non-stop!
Fri - Supper market (which turned out to be only a small crowd)
Sat - Queen Victoria Market + shopping
Sun - Camberwell market (sian rained) + dimsum (I've had better)
Mon - Bendigo school trip
Tues - Bendigo school trip, fell asleep at everything
Wed - Rest day
Thurs - Springvale (asian community) + Chadstone (the LARGEST shopping centre in the whole of Southern Hemisphere!)
Today - Rest + pack
Sat - Brighton beach + bathing boxes!
Sun - Rest??
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Wed - Fly off to Tasmania then Sydney for my TWO week holiday!


Pretty cool huhs. So urgh of me to keep falling asleep during the important stuff and perk up only for the play moments. Sighh. I hope this doesn't translate to work. I shall set my own culture to take a break when I need too, humans can't work 8 hours a day with just a lunch break!

Just before exams (again) I honestly couldn't fall asleep. And plus the heater's down (again) and it's 11 degrees at night. Arggh. Why can't they ever up the heater when we need it?? Last weekend I think I was sleeping at 2:30am for 3 nights, but I got better! Snoozed at 1230am for two nights already. I rock!

Like I said, life is good. I'm lookin' fwd to travelling, tasting Sg life again, celebrating festive seasons, meeting my friends, exploring more of Melbourne, a brand new sem next year, spending money saving money, and keeping in touch. But life can get better. I just really really want them to know I'm there. Like how some are there for me. Always.

My happy gifts to remind myself of them when I'm over. Card from Yiks, pouch and star phone charm frm skee n sm, wooden board deco from Chanchans, super card from Su (just so like her), and of course, my constant happiness reminder of 4E1! (((((((: Q5 is right; I look at the card and it is my strength. I can never ask for any bunch of mates better.

Honestly, going back is almost becoming my top priority now other than sleeping and eating. And studying. Haha! Oh and enjoying myself to the max.

Went for salsa and bachata with Nik on Monday. Woooo hot! It was quite fun, the teacher made it like social dancing so we get to swing ourselves to the next partner. Bachata involves lots of hipswaying which (urgh) I can't master yet and partner's bugging me to practise. Shoots I'll miss next week's lesson! Sigh. Well at least I'll have one more with Nik, he's so fun, he makes me smile most of the time. And it felt so nice to just come home after midnight w/o having to report to anyone. Hahhaha.

Which reminds me. I'm seeking a good, deep belly laugh. If you have the concoction for it, pls contact me. I'm missing it. Cross fingers that I can go for E1 chalet! I really really really wanna!

I need more friends, need to getaway from (ugh) weird ppl in aussie. Trust me no kidding there are just wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiierd people. And nice people like Nik and some of my really sweet friends. Wakkaa.

Now I'm learning songs on piano again. Shiokkk! I just wish the piano was nearer.

Happy Birthday to the people I know! Erwin, Peiyin, Miao, Keng & HB! Sooooo many birthdays, more to come.

Back to studying! Down, fb, down!

Thank You

For not taking her away. For her to find you, to live, to continue as it is worth. For more happy memories to come.

You never know when someone might be feeling down enough, after a buildup, an accumulation. You can never prevent everything, but you can up the alertness and do something.
Maybe it was just a phase, but who knows?

Aw. Happy Birthday Sis(albeit late post).

Reality (& nice people)

Awww!

My housemate is the sweetest ever. Now I know why he's so pops with girls. Hhahaha. I just had a pretty good day!

Came back yesterday from SALSA! Wa lao eh, pretty intimidating lor, we arrived, found a HUGE group of people in the dark mingling and stuff like that and hello, we don't have mingling sessions like that ever in Singapore. So okay, feeling apprehensive about forgetting dance steps and stuff while waiting for class to start.

I think you can tell abit about a man/boy when you dance with him. Some hold your hands too tight, some move their shoulders too much, some don't look at you, some shake hands and introduce themselves. I met this guy who gave me a very weird look everytime we started salsa-ing, narrowing his eyes and pursing his lips. I was like 'WTH???' in my mind but ohwells, smiling politely might just be the way to go here. Super LOL! If I didn't look at him, it mite seem rude. If I did, I'll burst out laughing sooner or later. Creeeeeppy.

But there were also really nice people! Like this Indian guy who came with a Singaporean Indian female. So friendly and nice to talk to. And another person who has been dancing swing for 4-5 years but is trying out salsa. And some who were only on their first lesson but didn't feel like it; they moved so naturally! There was this NZ guy whom I had to guide through a turn-move cuz he was too focused on the instructor to turn correctly. Well another memorable one was this Asian person who didn't look properly and put his hand on my STOMACH (rather than waist) when we were turning. Yeah nice and warm but totally in the wrong place. Another LOL moment. I wonder if Chanchan has such lol-able moments too? Hahhaha. Epic man! I think I shall never forget dance. And being a beginner dancer.

I really like how the instructor makes it funny naturally tho. Like when he's trying to get the guys to follow a step, he goes something like, "Okay guys, when you raise your arms and turn the lady, you don't just look down and oogle and go 'Uh huhhhh'.. you gotta do your basic step at the same time! And DON'T THINK they don't know, the girls KNOW it when you're doing that'. Hilarious! Reminds me of how men are visual by nature.

The funny thing is that while we were waiting for class to begin the weird look guy came up and asked if I wanted to warm up. When we nearly wanted to start the lights came on, so we said well, another time. Thank goodness I didn't. I can't stand anymore weird looks. On a second thought, maybe the darkness would have helped. Hahahhahahahahahahaha. There are just so odd dancers! Makes me wonder how the females are faring too. Are we not looking at them enough? Not swaying enough? LOL.

So anyway! Arrived back home after a shiok bus ride(we always get seats) and got really hungry! As usual. But I didn't have any leftover food to heat up and the only stuff I had to eat was sweet stuff which I didn't fancy then. Brewed some instant soup but that wasn't satisfying enough. Bumped into my housemate who was preparing dinner (at 1130pm) and being such a nice guy and hearing me whine he offered me some of his dinner! It's super good! Chicken-pea-carrot-onions-garammasala-tumeric-corianderpowder-yoghurt-garlic curry and fluffy rice! I must emphasize on the fluffiness of the rice because he used to practically cook porridge aha. Man, that really hit the spot. Living in hostel is gooooood when you have such a sweet housemate who funnily enough, gets nervous when he cooks for someone and says that girls intimidate him. Muhaha! I am SO getting that recipe!

Okay, tonight heading off to Mel's house for potluck, hope it's gonna be good! But first, assignments woohoo!

皮蛋花生瘦肉粥！

OOooOoomph. First time making porridge, unsupervised. I can't wait to go Camberwell market to try the so-heard fabulous dimsum! And go visit second-hand shops again! One thing I definitely will miss in Melb are the unique markets selling anything and everything!

Day out to the Craft Expo (I love craft expos, they're one of the greatest creations on earth!)

A different feeling..

You reckon it's from drinking too much ribena? From listening too much of 'Two is Better than One', Goong songs? From missing my dance lesson? The possibility that might happen? The uncertainty? The sudden surge of emotions? The need as a human being to connect and reconnect? The fear to lose?

I count my losses in life. The possibility of losing more. Perhaps I can't see the gains that clearly, obscured by the impact of the negative. I had me time. Took a walk by the lake to sit, take photos and view the flowing waters. Maybe watch a movie alone.

To put myself in this one big world, I know I need to be where those important are. I'm not extraordinary, I'll seek to meet my needs too. To you, to love and life.

As described

Like it was described in Eat, Pray, Love:

It's when someone decides to power you with a dosage of attention, needy, gushing attention. It's like dangling a carrot over your lips, coated with chocolate and goodies. It's a bait, a drug, soon to be your everything. Soon you start craving that attention, and when the drug is withdrawn, you get listless, sick, emotional. You want more. But now that someone doesn't want to give it to you, even though he knows he can. You get cravings and wants and now he's repulsed by you, he doesn't acknowledge you, much less is in love with you. You may devalue yourself and find yourself doing odd things never thought of. Just to get a bit more of it. And there you go.

As aptly put in SKK:

It's when you want to see this person over and over again, you can't get enough. Whatever happens with this person, you feel either extremely happy or miserable. But you still want more. You can't forget, you think about it all the time, you reminicise, you practically pulse faster.

Hooked

Now that I've made muffins through pre-mix once, I'm hooked! I just wanna buy pre-mixes and dump them into the oven then eat them! Muhahahha. I need Sg food dosage sooons ooooooooosososnnnnnn..

Done with one presentation and one report today! Thank goodness. Though it's not as hectic in NYP, but I kinda feel I'm lacking abit of time. Maybe it's the many factors like the ever-changing weird weather, the lack of good solid food aka familiar food and more.

Mum just said she hasn't stepped into JP since I left! Ahahahha da power of moi. Well I shall go back and make her happy and eat all the restaurants in JP! Woots!

You know, what really makes me wanna go back is the fact that I have people welkoming me back. Maybe I fear too much. I alr made dates with some friends soooo I'll get to see them in the short timespan that I'm around! Am seriously thinking of staying in Msia slightly longer for CNY.. maybe kajiao my grandma abit and finally, properly learn how to make those biscuits and tarts! *slurps*

Oven-baked chicken wings sometime ago.. realized meat here tastes different.. raw-er than those back home. Ohh! I'm so gonna eat yam basket, claypot tofu, lemon chicken, sambal kangkong zhi char when I go back!

Ever since I went for picnics/chillouts on the grass last year I've been looking for specific spots to do so. Even when overseas! I like it when the trees provide shade and yet the grass isn't too full of insects lol. In Sg a slight breeze and less humidity would be good too! Here everything is so dry, when I pull off my clothes I always hear static in my hair. AND at night, when I use the fleece blanket I can see sparks! Chio huh.

That's my favourite spot at the Grampians hostel - Tim's Place. It's got this really super nice den with TV, books, games, comfy chairs and all it needs is a heater! So we spent our nights watching movies and chilling out. Met a group of Msian students studying at Monash on our 2nd night too, and they're a really nice bunch! Saw 'em e next day at Pinnacles Climb but too bad we didn't take photos or anything together!

The last one was a lazy Sunday afternoon at the lake - warm sun, green grass, lots of work to do, what else? Hahhahaha.

Go Fluffy!

Shiokness! Nice weather, sun's out and I'm on a mat by the lake outside the hostel soaking in.. homework. Hahha! But whatever lah. Super nice to finally go out without wrapping myself in 6 layers and thermal underwear. Lol.

Sometimes I like solitary moments like this but you know, I'm too far apart. Everybody's somewhere else. I know, people tell me to make new friends. I have made new friends. But its still different. It's not like I grew up here, met everybody I know for many years here.

Last Mon-Wed I went up to the mountains at Grampians! It's super shiok, I love climbing those rocks to get to the peak. And I still wish I could have more time to enjoy the process, stop and take in the air and the views. Stop and think about where I am, my position in this universe, my spot in this world.

I love my stuffed toys more after watching Toy Story 3. There's a TOTORO in there, did you seeee???

I know. When I'm back, I'll look back in time and wish I could have these moments forever. The carefreeness, the thrill of exploration, the excitement of immersing in new cultures, the meeting of new people, the virgin firsts I'll be getting. Many a time we don't know it till we lose it. But I'll make sure I realize mine.

Recently I've started collecting more figurines/pieces of furniture. I wanna build a pretty house. Or I wanna prettify my house. But should I go to the expense of large pieces of furniture? It'll be troublesome to ship, especially if I have no space now, won't it?


It's when you don't allow previous things to break you. It's when you continue to hope, and to act on that hope. It's when you continue to spot beauty everyday. That's when you live life.

That's my new favourite dog breed I saw in a petshop! Lhasa Apso. Too bad Singapore isn't a practical place for big dogs. Haha. The name itself sounds cheem already.. like some brand of some sort.

I have everything I need, now I just need someone to share it with (:

In your own skin

Sometimes

No matter what clothes I put on, no matter how I act, how matter how cute I can be, no matter what I say, no matter how I change

You just can't win somebody else.

So what matters, what really matters, is to find that inner peas and be comfortable in your own skin, enjoy yourself for who you are, surround yourself with those who enjoy you too.

We often wanna look for happiness. But maybe, just maybe, as we consider our family, friends, those around us and consider what we are doing, happiness may just find us by itself.

Oh.

It's coming soon already. So soon.

I can't help it, dates kinda haunt me. I remember what I was doing one year ago, one and half years ago, at that time and that place. But well, I suppose as I grow older, I'll have more of other significant dates to take note of and slowly I'll forget/hold less in significance.

This Saturday I'm going to the Royal Melbourne Show! Apparently it's like lots of stuff, kinda like a carnival of sorts, with rides and food and things to see! Woooo! Singapore should have this man. Think what I appreciate most here is the interesting weather, green landscape, pretty blooming trees, weekend/artsy markets and events like these! Not to mention people who are extremely friendly and willing to help.

SM got me hooked on a show (watched on computer) like finally! Sungkyunkwan Scandel! Hahhaha. It's pretty interesting.

Time to keep in peace. Inner peas.

illustration

I noticed at my old blog I stopped at my 450th post. Haa. Here's a look at my past week's happenings! Muz be too lazy to type already. Got lots of work and I sooooo feeeel like sleeping (at inappropriate times). Yum chums.

i wuv how it looks (:

Pretty at Paperrific!

Very nice - at university pillar

ooOooohh why didn't i buy 'em

My nasi-something lunch that can do me two meals :D

St Paul's Cathederal

Sunday - Camberwell Market!

Cheap stuff!

Art installation

Hahah fun mirror at Pancake Palour

Pretty fabric buttons!

Inspired from Paperrific